Singer Celine Dion is bracing herself for a "bittersweet" first Christmas following the death of her husband Rene Angelil.
The My Heart Will Go On hitmaker said her final goodbyes to her spouse of 22 years in January (16), when he died after a long battle with throat cancer at the age of 73.
Celine will be taking the couple's sons Rene-Charles, 16, and six-year-old twin boys Nelson and Eddy, with her to Big Sky in Montana to ski for the holidays - a tradition the family has kept for many years, and she knows the trip might turn out to be an emotional rollercoaster.
"He (Angelil) put something magic into that snow, into those mountains, and every time we go down (the slopes), I go down with him,” she tells PageSix. “My children go down thinking about him. Every time I take the lift to go up, I feel closer to him.”
“I can’t believe it’s going to be a year that my husband passed," she adds. "I don’t know when Santa Claus is coming, but if I had a wish to make this year, can you just tell him to take his time? I’m not ready! It’s kind of a bittersweet moment and at the same time we need to really make the holidays really happy.”
Although a few close friends and family members will be joining Celine and her kids on the trip, the singer admits she doesn't want too much company this holiday season.
“For me the trip is not to party," she shares. "It’s to try and meditate, find balance and be at peace with myself and my children and to eat, to play games."