Michelle Williams has opened up about raising her daughter Matilda alone following the death of her former partner Heath Ledger.
The 36-year-old actress is mother to 11-year-old daughter Matilda, who was born in 2005 while the actress was in a relationship with Heath. The Australian actor died in January 2008 aged 28 following an accidental drug overdose, and Michelle still struggles to think of her little girl without a father.
“In all honesty, for pretty much everything else, I feel like I’m a believer in not fighting circumstances, accepting where you are and where you’ve been,” Michelle told Porter magazine. “In pretty much all senses but one. I would be able to go totally down that line of thinking were it not for Matilda not having her dad. You know that’s just something that doesn’t... I mean, it just won’t ever be right."
Michelle has not committed to another man since Heath's death. And while she has experimented in the dating world, she has yet to find her dream partner.
"Talk about a learning process," she groaned of the dating process. "I think, God, what would I say about it? I feel really sensitive about it and certainly did not expect to still be dating at 36 with an 11-year-old. This is not what I imagined.
"I'm like a cat, I'm a very domestic creature. I just want to stay home and take care of people. But I'm also happy with myself and just because I might have a desire to be with someone…that won't lead me to marry the wrong person."
The actress is currently earning critical acclaim for her role in Manchester by the Sea, in which she stars alongside Casey Affleck as a mother whose life is turned upside down by a family tragedy.
Filming the heart-wrenching movie was anything but easy for Michelle, who admits she was impacted so much by the plot because she herself is a mother.
“I couldn’t stop crying,” Michelle added to the magazine. "It’s like the darkest part of your heart, something happening to your child … She’s making a brave choice, moment by moment, hour by hour, day by day. Because it is a choice. I would exit... It would be so much easier than living with the loss."