Article Dec 18, 2016

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Michelle Williams: 'Raising a child in the public eye is difficult'

Michelle Williams is concerned about raising her daughter in the spotlight.

The My Week with Marilyn star has been acting since she was a child, and she is still working to balance her everyday life with fame, so she has no idea what the experience is like for her young daughter with late ex-boyfriend Heath Ledger.

The 36-year-old explains having to navigate through her personal experiences publicly has made it difficult for her to judge how much of her life with her daughter the public gets to see.

"If you feel like people are watching you, it's impossible to have an authentic experience of being alive," she tells Elle magazine. "There's a performative aspect and a guardedness, and that's just death. I don't know how to live like that, and I don't know how to give a life to my child like that."

However, despite her difficulty balancing her personal life while living in the public eye, the actress has learned how to set boundaries when it comes to what she wants to reveal.

"It's not naturally my inclination to be a boundary draw-er," she says. "I'm like, 'Open up all the doors and the windows and let everybody in'. That's the aim of my work, too.

"I have better boundaries now. I feel less susceptible to emotional wreck-diving to come up with explanations for everything."

In addition to learning how to live her life in the spotlight, Michelle recently opened up about how she has been raising her daughter without Heath, who passed away in 2008 after suffering an accidental drug overdose.

"In all honesty, for pretty much everything else, I feel like I'm a believer in not fighting circumstances, accepting where you are and where you've been," she told Porter magazine. "In pretty much all senses but one. I would be able to go totally down that line of thinking were it not for Matilda not having her dad. You know that's just something that doesn't... I mean, it just won't ever be right."