Anne Hathaway was miserable inside as she prepared for her first big awards season a decade ago after starving herself to fit the image of the perfect Hollywood figure.
The Les Miserables star had been a top nominee heading into the 2009 prizegivings after garnering critical acclaim for her role as a recovering addict in Rachel Getting Married.
However, while her career was thriving, Anne was struggling in her personal life as she battled "feelings of inadequacy, insecurity and nervousness and anxiety" as she fretted about looking picture perfect on the red carpet.
"I did everything so wrong for so long," she confesses in The Jess Cagle Interview on People TV.
"I'm not big on looking back, but I remember 10 years ago being so scared going into the whole awards season and doing what I thought I was supposed to do, so I barely ate anything at Christmas..."
Her body image worries drove Anne to puff on cigarettes to help her ease her anxieties: "I thought movie stars had to have a certain body," she says. "I was just smoking, just smoking my nerves away and wasn't nourishing myself."
Now 36, Anne has adopted a much healthier and relaxed approach to life in the public eye, especially after becoming a mother in 2016.
"I just figured out how to say thank you to life by taking care of myself," she reflects. "By not apologizing for taking up space, which is not something I knew how to do 10 years ago."
Anne shares her two-year-old son Jonathan with her husband Adam Shulman, who she has been married to since 2012.